Mejojac's Memos

Guilty as Charged
I'm cheap. I don't buy things for myself unless I can find them at a yard sale or a second hand store. Which means that I have a closet full of ill fitting clothing. It's so hard for me to spend money on clothing for myself. I can buy TONS of stuff for the kids or hubby and not bat an eye. I don't know why. I'm weird. I'm starting to accept that. Yesterday, at Target, I tried on a dress. It was brown and a nice cut. Baby Girl loved it. She cried when I put it back on the rack, "But Momma, it's your Cinderella dress! You look so pretty!!" Real tears run down her face. :S And I start to wonder, am I teaching her something negative here? I didn't feel like I was worth the $25 for the dress. It did look good on me. But I found something wrong with it (decided I didn't like the collar) because I couldn't justify the price. I'm NUTS!! Because, to me, $25 is just too much for a dress. I do this all the time. When I pulled into our garage I cried. Why don't I feel like I'm worth 25 lousy dollars?? I thought about this a lot yesterday... and today I went to Kohl's determined not to leave without at least one item. I found two pairs of shorts, a nice shirt, and two different tank tops to go under my new shirt. I know... I'm a wild woman! LOL But it felt nice to get something new. Something that fit. Something I felt good wearing. Everything was on sale, so that was a plus. And then what did I do? I opened a Kohl's account so that I could get another 15% off. And then I got to scratch a little card, because of said account and I got another 15% off. So, it really wasn't too bad. But, I still want to run back to the store, give all the stuff back, go to the 80% rack and find something out of season, out of style, not my size, but super cheap!