Thursday, July 31, 2008
noun - a characteristic, habit, mannerism, or the like, that is peculiar to an individual.
I do have a rather peculiar habit that I've noticed about myself. I like food. Which really isn't that odd. I know there are a few people out there that don't believe in eating food (the Olsen Twins), but I am not one of those people. No, the oddity in my eating comes more with the rationalizing that I do as I eat it.
You see, I'm trying to be good. I'm exercising more. I'm attempting to get more sleep. And I'm trying to eat better. But, that's where this idiosyncrasy comes in.
I will sometimes bring home edible items that aren't very healthy for me. Then, I feel a rather bizarre need to consume ALL of that food. You know, so it won't be in my house tempting me to eat it.
Do you have any idea how stupid that sounds? And yet, I do it. Over and over. I will tell myself, "Have more M&M's ... you really need to get them out of the house quickly so you won't be tempted to eat more tomorrow!"
Um... HELLO! I'M STUFFING MY FACE NOW! Do fat and calories multiply as foods sits around my house waiting to be consumed? The worst part is: after I've eaten the food, I feel bad that no one else got any. SO I GET MORE! Wasn't devouring the food so it wasn't in the house whole point of my really lame justification? I'm afraid that I've created a rather vicious cycle.
And now, if you'll excuse me, there's a yellow cake with chocolate frosting sitting in my fridge. I've already had a piece today, but I don't want to mess up my healthy eating for tomorrow... so I'll just finish it off tonight...
Am I the only one who does this??
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
I got an email from my totally amazing Mom this morning (hi Mom!). The family is in the midst of a de-junking war and was wondering if we would like to participate. The losers buy the winners movie tickets. And if my kids win, as a group, my mom will by them a movie. So, the question at hand was: are we, as a family unit, willing to put our money where our mouth is? My answer? BRING IT ON!
I'm pretty sure we've got enough junk to sustain 3-4 other families, besides our own. And so, for the next few days, I will be sorting, stacking, and tossing as much stuff as I possibly can. And the kids? They are ready! Baby Girl has already gone through all her clothes and gotten rid of two bags full of stuff.
It's sad, really. She had TWO BAGS of stuff to get rid of! And she has tons of clothes left! The only thing she's lacking right now are long sleeved shirts. And, um, yeah. It's supposed to be a balmy 108 today. So, we'll wait to get more warm stuff till we visit Idaho. We ALWAYS need warm clothes when we go there :)
And so, I will be absent from the blogosphere this week. I'm taking this challenge very seriously. Part of the reward, if we win, is a free babysitter the next time my parents come to visit. Which, they usually do anyway, but this time they'd be paying for the date too! Do you know how long it's been since I've seen a movie that doesn't have talking animals? or spontaneous bursting into song? or actual people on the screen? I haven't seen a "grown-up" movie in the theatre since... um... well, now, let me think... I guess it would have been National Treasure 2. Yeah. And the movie before that? Well, that's just asking too much from my fragile brain. Sorry.
The gauntlet has been thrown down. The challenge issued. Am I up for this task? OH YEAH!
(note - yes, I did watch part of American Gladiators last night... so?)
Saturday, July 26, 2008
We've lived in this valley for almost two years. There are a lot of things I still don't know. A lot of places I've never been. A lot of places I don't EVER want to go. But today I decided to drag my family out to one of the places we have wanted to go, but we've just never gotten around to it.
The Public Library.
That's right. In the last 2 years we have not stepped foot inside a public library. Little Bug has a really hard time going in. He cried as we walked in. He whimpered as we looked at books. He screamed when I gave the lady the books to check out. For some reason, he is not a big library fan.
But I had forgotten how much I love them! You see, for the last few years we have purchased a lot of books. Mostly online. Ebay is an excellent source. We also have a Barnes and Noble membership which gives us all kinds of discounts. We have a pretty decent library here in our home and I don't mind reading good books over and over. But sometimes I get bored. And we don't always have the money to get new books. I've borrowed a few books here and there from friends, but I'm a pretty avid reader! I go through books rather quickly. And going to the library today was like being reacquainted with an old friend. A friend that terrifies my middle child, but a friend none-the-less.
And so, I'm off. It's reading time. I was only allowed to take out two books today. I'll probably have them done by Monday. As soon as I take these two back, I'll be allowed to check out 30 books at a time.
30. That thought? Well, it makes me smile just a bit!
Friday, July 25, 2008
Nancyface had this up on her blog... so I tried it out. Now, many of you know that my opinion of the Disney Princesses is more like this....
So, I was pretty pleased when I got this Princess...
You Are Pocahantas!
Free-spirited and wise. You have a strong passionate spirit that touches and changes all who know you. The wisdom and common sense that you have is really what guides you through life. Even so, you also have a very playful side that loves adventure and excitement.
Which Disney Princess Are You?
Not my favorite Disney Movie of all time (nor the most historically accurate), but I like the character they created. And I'll pretend that the description applies to me... because I'd love to be more like that! So, which princess are you?
Thursday, July 24, 2008
So, yesterday was not the greatest day. Not only did I struggle with my worth as a mother and stay at home mom, I also had to deal with a good friend moving away. I have other friends here, but not like her. She would go on crazy shopping trips with me, go out to lunch or dinner, swap babysitting, and come over and visit while the kids played. And now she's in Utah. And I'm here. And the only thing I can think is "Crap".
Why "crap"? Well, first of all, because my friend is gone. And I'm going to miss her! And second - because a search must now begin. I don't function well without a good girlfriend or two that I can just hang out with. And so, I must put myself out in the scary world again. I have to invite people over, attempt to find common interests, and try to find someone who thinks I'm kinda quirky and fun rather than sarcastic and obnoxious. It's a tall order... one that I seem to have trouble filling down here. Don't get me wrong, there are some really amazing people here... but I'm not sure that they always get my sense of humor. There are a lot of awkward silences when I attempt to be funny. Sigh.
You'd think that after all the moves I've had, I'd be an old pro at making friends. For some reason, this stage of the game is always hard for me. I have a hard time putting myself out there hoping that someone will think I'm worth the time to get to know. I've attempted to make friends with people before and have been snubbed. It's frustrating and rather deflating to one's ego. But, I suppose I'll try again...
And so, if you'll excuse me, I'm off to plot and plan a way to trick another unsuspecting person into being my friend. Cross your fingers for me!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Do you ever sit down and wonder what your purpose is? I have the last few days... what am I meant to accomplish with my life? To cleanse and fold mountains of laundry over and over and over again? To wash dishes? Scrub floors? General cleaning of the home on a regular basis? Am I nothing more than a maid? I suppose not.
I'm also a nanny.
I get to deal with the tantrums, the constant string of "I'm bored" (even though I've given a long list of activities to occupy their time), the whining, the screaming, the messes, and the general craziness that often comes with having kids.
Now, I know I chose this life. I want to be a stay at home mom. But it doesn't mean I always like it. I understand that being a mom is a wonderful thing, but at times, I don't feel wonderful. I feel like an unpaid servant. I know that part of my problem is that I'm a reward driven person. And some days? Well, there just isn't a reward to be found.
And so I turn to you: how do you find the strength to keep getting up each day and doing the same thing over and over? How do you find the reward within your day? What do you do to keep the monotony away?
P.S. Please ignore all spelling errors... my spell check isn't working... again...
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I feel like I've gone on some kind of journey... and got really really lost! But, I've found my way back to the land of the living - I think. I believe that the culprit for my headaches was a new (read: cheaper) detergent we were using. It had a really strong smell and every time I would put on clothes that had been washed in it, the pounding would begin. Not fun... so, thank you for all the well wishes! Hopefully this won't happen again!
Now, onto some random summer fun! I gave the boys hair cuts the other day. It's always a struggle to get Little Bug's hair cut, but we managed in the end. Then, I gave Red a mohawk... as a joke. He loved it! He really wanted to keep it. And I? Well, I kinda thought it was fun too.
But Hubby wasn't as impressed... so I gave him a mohawk when I cut his hair too!He still loves me... and in the end I shaved off both mohawks. Maybe next time.
The kids have been spending a lot of time in the pool... aw... aren't they cute?Yeah... except, this is what it USUALLY looks like... Little Bug wasn't excited about the thought of having his picture taken that day...
As for my own summer fun, I was on the receiving end of some fun packages! I got one from Elasticwaistband Lady a few weeks ago! Inside the box there were fruit roll ups that the kids devoured...
two fun wash cloths....and flip flops for Baby Girl and myself!This picture does not convey the happiness felt by Baby Girl with these flip flops! She completely adores them!
Then, I participated in a "Favorite Things" swap hosted by Sariqd and she ended up with my name. First we have two pairs of earrings that she made herself, a canvas world market bag and then the silver pen with charms at the end that make a lovely jingling sound whenever I write.Then we have a sarong (I'm still trying to figure out how to tie it), some gel pens, note cards and a notebook!And last, but not least, this fun do rag! I used to wear these all the time, but lost my rags a long time ago! Can't wait to tie this one on!All in all I've been terribly spoiled, but I'm not complaining! Now, I'm off to read blogs. I'm a tad behind after more than a week of feeling cruddy! See ya around the blogosphere...
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
So, I didn't get those bags done. :( I have felt really cruddy since Sunday. Yesterday I was feeling better but I had weird headaches all day long. What is a weird headache, you ask? Well, I'll tell you.
A weird headache is one that comes and goes as it pleases. It has a will of it's own. This particular headache seems to enjoy starting at the base of my neck, on the right side, and wrapping over the top of my head into my forehead. But it remains completely on the right side. Then, when it feels like it, it switches sides. And suddenly, it is doing the same thing on the left side of my head. It's rather entertaining, really, to try and figure out what it will do next.
For the moment, I am headache free, and I'm hoping to remain that way throughout the day. I can feel tiny twinges in my head, but nothing too crazy. Perhaps my headache has multiplied and replenished my brain with little tiny aches here and there!
I'm not sure if I'll be on the computer much though... I'm going to rest and take it easy for the next couple of days. I don't know what in the world my problem has been! I don't have the nausea any more, but now my sinuses are full. Whatever this illness is, it's giving me a total body workout!
Monday, July 14, 2008
I really don't have much to say... I feel like crud again today. Head aches on and off all day long. Nausea again. Perhaps I'm getting a summertime flu... blech.
I'm liking the new, new look. It feels a little more summery. As I was going through all my digital scrap booking stuff, I found a lot of papers for fall and I was so excited! I love the fall colors... then, I remembered: we don't get autumn here.
They call it "fall weather", but the rest of the world would call it "summer". It's still green. It's still nice. There are no cool, crisp days. And then it hit me - I really miss the seasons. I am not a winter fan, but I do love spring and fall.
I guess I'll enjoy the seasons vicariously through my blog. And so, come September, you can expect some fun autumn looks. And now, I'm dizzy. I'm going to go lay back down.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
You know... even if fabric did make me ill, I'd probably keep buying it. That's what addicts do, right? Continue with a behavior, no matter the consequences...
Friday, July 11, 2008
I'm messing with the look of the blog again. I'm not fond of this one... it feels... almost dingy to me. I like it okay, but it's not a favorite. I think I'll mess with it a little more in the next few days. So, if you come back and things look different, don't worry. You're not in the wrong place. You're in the presence of an indecisive crazy person.
Yeah. That's what people told us when we were looking at moving to this lovely Southern California desert. "It gets REALLY HOT, but it's a dry heat, so it's not so bad...". They obviously haven't ever been here during the Monsoons. Yeah. We get humidity starting in July and going through September. So, not only is it 110 degrees outside, it's sticky, nasty, horridly humid. If you step outside, it's like being instantly wrapped in saran wrap. All of your clothing adheres to your skin and it's not a pretty site. Not at all.
Last night we had a pretty crazy thunderstorm with tornado warnings just up the valley. TORNADO WARNINGS! I live in Southern California. I live with the constant thought of "I wonder if there will be an earthquake/out of control wild fire today?" And now I get to add TORNADO to my list of natural disaster possibilities.
Ah... it's good to be a Californian.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
So, I have a bunch of pictures that look like this...But, finally, after much persistence and giggles, I got a couple of shots!If he keeps loosing teeth at this rate, we may have to look into dentures till the new ones can grow in!
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
I know that being green is a good thing. We recycle, turn our thermostat to 81 during the day, yell at the offspring to turn off lights, shut doors and close the refrigerator. I'm doing my part but, I'm not an extremist. For example: I've never chained myself to a tree that was about to be cut down. I don't belong to E.L.F. (Earth Liberation Front). And, I'm not as extreme as the women who have decided not to have kids because children aren't "eco-friendly". I won't be following in any of those carbon-less footsteps any time soon. Why? Well, let me tell you ...
Reason #1 - I don't own any chains. The strongest material I own is yarn... perhaps I could crochet myself to the tree... would that work?
Reason #2 - I don't look good in hats. Especially Elf hats. And I have never been able to use spray paint without it dribbling all over the place. I'm seriously lacking in graffiti skillz.
Reason #3 - I already have kids. The only way to really change that would probably land me in jail for 3 life sentences. So, you know, I'll just keep them around for now.
Reason #4 - I've found a better solution! Yep - I know how to go green without attaching myself to a redwood, blowing things up to send a message, or reducing the size of our family. My idea? Stop doing all housework.
Just think about it for a minute...
Laundry: The average washing machine uses 22 gallons of water for each load. On average, I do
6-8 batches each week. That's 132-176 gallons of water each week! And then you have the energy to run the washer and dryer.
Dishes: Again, the average dish washer uses 9-12 gallons. We do at least one batch a day... which adds up to 63-84 gallons each week. And then there's the electricity to run the machine. I know I could do them by hand, but that's an average of 20 gallons of water each time.
Cleaning the bathroom: I have to have the lights on to see all the filth in there. Plus, all the chemicals I dump everywhere so that the creatures lurking in the nooks and crannies will die. And then, there's the water used to wash those chemicals down the drain.
These are just a few examples. But I think you get the gist of the idea. We should all try to do our best to take care of our planet.
If you've got chains and a local tree to strap yourself to, go for it.
If you think burning things to the ground will make a point, well, um, go see a psychiatrist.
If you're going to get rid of your children, I'll send you cookies while you sit in jail.
But really, I think the no housework plan is a viable option. So, put down that mop. Throw away your cleaning supplies. Forget about the laundry. And do your part to save Mother Earth!
Monday, July 07, 2008
I think everyone knows the old adage "The early bird catches the worm". I think we all understand the meaning - if you rise first thing in the morning, you get a jump start on your day and are able to get things done that others might not. This is probably true... most of the time.
Baby Girl is the early bird in our home. The very early bird in my opinion. 5:30-6:00 isn't uncommon for her. Me? I'm a night owl. I prefer to sleep till 7-7:30 and even later if I can possibly swing it. But, on nights where I haven't slept well (like last night), I need a few extra minutes.
So, what happens when the early bird and the night owl come into contact? Feathers fly!
If I keep Baby Girl up too late she gets grouchy. She is miserable and can't wait to get to bed. If she wakes me up too early in the morning, I grumble and groan and tell her to go play. Not my proudest moments, but it happens. There has to be a way for our sleep habits to co-exist. But for the life of me, I can't seem to figure out how.
If she were in school, I'd nap during that time. But she's not. And she is a firm believer in everyone being awake when she is. I tried to take a nap yesterday and she came in, sat on the bed and then proceeded to poke and pinch me till I got up.
I can't put her to bed at a later time because it doesn't seem to have any effect on her sleep. If she's in bed at 7:30, she's up at 6:00. If she's in bed at 9:30, she's up at 6:00 and then she's a tad on the whiny/dramatic side.
I suppose the only thing left is for me to become an early bird. Ack!! But how? My body shudders at the very thought! How does one reverse 31 years of enjoying the evenings and then sleeping in? There has to be another solution... possibly one that involves duct taping Baby Girl to her bed each night...
Saturday, July 05, 2008
We went to the beach to spend time with family and it was insane. INSANE I TELL YOU!! Do not, I repeat, DO NOT go to the beach on the 4th of July! At least, not a Southern California beach. There were so many people camped out that you couldn't find a way to get from the road down to the water's edge. It was stressful for me and for the kids.
And, may I just take this moment to say that I completely understand the whole "love the skin you're in" concept. I'm down with that. We all come in different shapes and sizes and we should love who we are. BUT, this does NOT mean that we need to SHOW EVERYONE ON THE PLANET the skin you're in! I don't care how big or how small you are - I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR BUTT! I've never seen so many butt cracks in my life! It was just a tad on the gross side. And we won't even go into the excessive amounts of cleavage and other body parts that needed a few more yards fabric.
I actually felt like the odd man out. I was in capris and a t-shirt. Obviously, I was WAY overdressed for the occasion. I guess I'm not brave enough to wear a handkerchief and some string... or maybe I just don't love myself enough ... or maybe I just love everyone else enough not to burn their corneas out by that horrendous sight.
Whatever the case may be, you'll always be able to find me on the beach. I'll be the one wearing clothes.
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Ready for more randomness... no? Too bad! It's another random post for the day... if you want to read something meaningful, go back and read the post before this one!
- Where did June go? I kept looking at my calendar today thinking it was the twenty-something of June... who gave permission for it to be July? I'd really like to know! I feel like I blinked and missed an entire month.
- We have cabin fever. I know most people get this in the winter, but it was 117 here today. It was 118 yesterday. It's supposed to be 116 tomorrow and the day after that. So, we are hiding in our house. And the kids? They are going crazy. And the mom? She is going crazier. Help us!
- I just finished a book called "The Door Within" and I really liked it. It reminded me of C.S. Lewis - very allegorical. Lots of adventure. Lots of fun. And a good message.
- Little Bug is still awake. It's after 10. The kid just doesn't believe in sleep. He was up till after 11 last night and the night before. I think I need more Burnt Almond Fudge ice cream while I wait for him to drift off...
- Baby Girl watched one of the Barbie Princess movies today. She sighed and mooned over the Prince and I wondered if these movies are going to give her unrealistic views of romance and relationships. Then I decided that I would work on that tomorrow and let her watch another one (remember - 117 degrees outside...)
- I'm exhausted. Hubby was gone for a week before we went on our trip. I don't sleep when he's gone. I toss and turn and let me overactive imagination take over. Then we went on our trip and I slept in the same room as Baby Girl. The same Baby Girl who talks and grinds her teeth in her sleep. I didn't sleep for 2 weeks. Can you catch up on sleep? Or will I just be deprived forever?
- My brother took this picture. I wonder if this is what I'll look like when I'm a ghost? He was going to show me how to play with the shutter speed and aperture and all that good stuff, but we ran out of time. He might come with my parents for a visit this fall. If he does, I'll have to make sure he teaches me a few things...