Breathe In, Breathe Out
My chest feels like I have cinder blocks sitting on it. I slept under 4 blankets last night and was still cold. When I cough, I feel like someone is lighting a fire in my lungs. My throat is raw and swollen. I felt fine most of the day yesterday. And then last night it slammed into me...Red appears to be having some of the same symptoms.
This can't happen - not now! We can't get sick!! I won't allow it. We are supposed to go to DisneyLand next week! WE CAN'T BE SICK. :( I'm so frustrated by the thought of having to cancel our trip. I know it's petty and silly, but I've been kind of an emotional basketcase in the last month and a half (see, here, here, here and here - man, I've been really whiney this year). This trip was a kind of bright spot on the horizon. We haven't told the kids about it, so there won't be any disappointment on their part, but there would be on mine. BIG FAT SIGH! The thing that annoys me the most? I just finished an antibiotic. Yesterday. You'd think that would have killed off any crazy viruses or bacteria or whatever decided to enter my body.
I feel like I'm falling apart at the ripe old age of 31. Emotionally - I feel like I've hit a brick wall. There is no moving forward at this point. Physicall - I'm obviously ill and rather annoyed about it. Mentally - well, I didn't have much mental capability to begin with, but what I did have feels like it's being sucked out of me by some vampire who won't be satisfied till my brain resembles silly putty.
Okay - I'm done now... I'm going to put a movie on for the kids and crawl back into bed. Hope your day is TONS better than mine!