Monday, January 08, 2007

Frustrated
I'm loosing my mind today. I didn't sleep well last night. LOTS of weird dreams all night long that I kept waking up from and wondering what in the world was going on. Baby girl is breaking out in spots on her face. Not sure if it's chicken pox, but she did have a fever the other day. Now her eyes are all goopy. My little bug had a melt down of major proportions this morning. He was fine. Happy running around being all excited and then I went to put his shoes on and he freaked out. Completely and totally. Screaming, crying, running away... he almost acted like he was in pain. Looked at his feet and couldn't find anything wrong. He has one little sore on his toe, but it's been there since the end of last week and he's been wearing shoes with it all weekend. So, he finally put on sandals, but even that seemed to bother him. He loves to ride the bus, but didn't want to get on today. Just lost it when the driver helped him get his seatbelt on. Not sure what set him off. No apparent antecedent (big word for the day). He has had so many advances and yet, things like this happen all the time. It makes me question my parenting. There has to be something else I can do. Something is not right, but I can't place my finger on it. Maybe it's just me being silly. That happens on occasion. Well, here's hoping that tonight is better than today.

4 comments:

Shirlee said...

I think what your little bug is going through is failry normal for a child with autism. My son will be happy and content and then "boom" he's collasped on his bed or slumped in a chair for no apparent reason. I can alwa;ys tell when something has set him off because he'll get very quiet and on the verge of tears. After many years of dealing with this, I just let him be.
Don't worry, you'll have way more good days than bad. :)

Melissa said...

Shirlee - thank you so much! You don't know how much your comment ment to me. I didn't respond earlier... sorry... sometimes, when you are in the moment of something you just can't focus on anything else. It's been a crazy week. But getting better :) Thanks again!

RaNae said...

Glad things are getting better Mel
RaNae

Melissa said...

Thanks RaNae - my parents will be here tomorrow... so things will be crazier again...lol..