I've not been around much this week and I keep trying to figure out why. Why does my brain seem to have shut down when it comes to blogging? Why haven't I posted? Why haven't I read as much? Why did I buy that huge box of donuts yesterday? Why? Why? Why?
As I've pondered this, I think I've come up with a reason. Well, not for the donuts... I'm still not sure why I buy random junk food that I know is so bad for me... no, I'm talking about the blogging.
This time of year puts me in a funk. It's autumn somewhere, but not here. Hubby and I grew up in Idaho and our last place of residence before here was Eastern Oregon. The fall weather in both of those places is wonderful! In Oregon we had two maple trees and their leaves changed to yellows and reds. The apricot trees: yellowish orange. We pressed apple cider with friends. We harvested our garden. I canned peaches, tomatoes, green beans and applesauce. We opened windows at night and in the morning because of the cooler temps.
Now, technically, we are getting cooler temps here too. It's only going to be 101 today and 99 tomorrow. Which doesn't sound like much to most people, but it was 113 just a few weeks ago. So we'll take the 99... but it's just not the same.
We just don't get fall here - not the fall I know and love. The leaves, on some of the trees will eventually turn brown and fall off in a matter of days. But that won't happen till "winter" (you know, when we'll get all the way down to 70). We know of a place where we can go press cider, but it won't be with a big group of friends and it's EXPENSIVE! We're renting, so we don't have a garden. And even though we live in an area with lots of amazing produce, it's not the type of stuff you can really bottle up and store for later (citrus, table grapes, peppers...). Besides, it's too hot to grow anything here in the summer. The farmers harvest in the winter and spring. But there's nothing harvested in the fall.
And so, I guess, in a way.... I'm sulking. I'm throwing a teeny tiny tantrum as I listen to my A/C whir away. I miss fall. I miss the colors and the feeling of harvest. And the smell... oh how I miss the smell! Have you ever noticed the smell of a autumn day? And while I don't miss the bitter cold of winter, I do miss the crisp air of fall. Air that makes your lungs twinge just the tiniest bit when you take a deep breath.
Maybe this is the reason I bought the donuts too... perhaps I'm using it as a comfort food? I'll use that as my excuse...sigh. I'll be done pouting soon. Forgive me for wallowing. I know it's stupid. There are so many problems in this world that should occupy my thoughts and time, but I'm stuck on the weather patterns of Southern California. Summer is technically over in just a few days. I'll figure out a way to get my fall fix and then hopefully things can get back to normal... of course, normal is a relative term around here....